Earthbayne
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What is your sexual orientation: Straight
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« on: November 23, 2014, 03:01:55 PM » |
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Feeling better everyday.
It's amazing how much has changed in that time. I have so many plans now, it's ridiculous. I can do stuff, I can go places, I don't feel like I am in a glass cage anymore. The only thing that has stopped me from moving fully forward is the fact that I KNOW she will come back at some point. As the days go by, more and more pieces fell into place. The day before our "first date", she had cut her previous guy off. Funny, because she never really told me what happened, but she DID tell HIM that there was someone new in her life and she was going to pursue it.
Months later, she admitted that she had seen him, but that it wasn't a big deal because me and her weren't official yet. She was right, but it struck me as odd, because she wanted to me to have NOTHING with my ex.
Thinking back, it all makes sense in a way, and I'm relieved. I don't get anxious about my texts anymore. As time goes on, I'll feel a little better about whether I might bump into her or not while going out. I love that I don't have to check in anymore via text every few minutes. If I want to go to happy hour with my co-workers, I just do. If I want to go out on a Saturday night, I can. I don't have to sit with her at home when she is feeling anxious, depressed, and withdrawn.
Fact is, I do miss her, but I miss parts of her I'll never see and that I am sure don't really exist anyway. Everyday is another day I pick out another hook and throw it in the trash.
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