i want to thank all of you for being here... .it really has helped me see that i wasnt "alone" with my situation. i have been reading the threads before i registered and have gotten the answers from folks who have "been there done that" with a pwBPD. i never would have ever gotten the needed answers from my exBPDgf... .but i did here. i realize i was right in realizing i was a mere object, something to have and control... .that there was never real "love" in the r/s at all... .just infatuation. everyone describes the "fog" they were in with these ppl. i used that term before i was even aware there was a serious problem... i am very much aware of it now. we have been broke up since mid july (about 6 months) i'm starting to get my head back on straight. like many, after the b/u she was able to stalk another victim and reattach to a replacement within a couple weeks after i broke it off. she is an alcoholic and to my knowledge is still self medicating. i have been nc since new years when we accidently attended the same venue... .i was invited she was not, furthermore i was there first and had no idea she'd be there. i have her blocked on everything. that was a rough night for me, but rather it go completely to ___, i let my friends know that i couldnt stay because seeing her there with the replacement was too much for me and it wouldnt "end well" had i stayed. i was able to make it to some friends and the night was salvaged. thats the last ive seen or heard from her. the friend who invited me to that venue apologised to me and blocked her on his fb so she cant "accidently" show up again. was a minor setback for me but i'm getting better with time and distance and finding this site! really has been a huge help in answering the nagging questions! to all of you i say thank you!
