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[Pacify]

In a nutshell, it’s just too hard to love someone who doesn’t give back.  I feel maybe this is the time to lick my wounds and walk away. We have not spoken in the last five days, which is a record for us.  I don’t think we have never spoken before (besides silent treatment).

   I could apologize and I’m sure after some pleading things would be back to normal.  She would then resume looking for validation to break up with me once again.  It’s real hard to refute the words of a counselor.

This is really hard to process because it doesn’t fit along the normal lines of a breakup.  I love her but I have felt hate for her too, she has told me “I love you” and “I hate you” within the same minute. I am starting to feel the same crazy feelings she is, Love or Hate? Which am I to believe? 

If I look at it objectively I can say, she has a condition and is not doing this on purpose and I should not give up so quickly but then I feel I should run as far as possible from this mess and protect my very own ego from yet another blow of humiliation if things don’t go well.