I've been really proud of myself lately

[Beware of Junk Psychology...]

It's been a tough couple of years.  My marriage with uBPD wife is a mess.

My work had been struggling.

I've tried to set my goals and keep my course.  I've been working out regularly and devoting some extra time for work and the kids.

Well, in the last few days I have had some corporate meetings and somehow, I impressed.  I did some presentations and business plans and I have been receiving high praise for what I've done.

There is also a corporate directory in which we have our photos posted, one of my coworkers said, "you look much better in person than your picture reveals."  LOL

I was also told about what great leadership I have displayed.

It is great to receive such accolades!  It feels like a huge burden has been lifted from me.  I feel some of my old self coming back.  I do not base how I feel about myself on what others think and say, but this bit of success has been very nice!  I feel such a sense of pride in being able to work through all of the stress and produce results despite all that has been going on in my life.

Here's to moving forward with life!

[workinprogress]

It's been a tough couple of years.  My marriage with uBPD wife is a mess.

My work had been struggling.

I've tried to set my goals and keep my course.  I've been working out regularly and devoting some extra time for work and the kids.

Well, in the last few days I have had some corporate meetings and somehow, I impressed.  I did some presentations and business plans and I have been receiving high praise for what I've done.

There is also a corporate directory in which we have our photos posted, one of my coworkers said, "you look much better in person than your picture reveals."  LOL

I was also told about what great leadership I have displayed.

It is great to receive such accolades!  It feels like a huge burden has been lifted from me.  I feel some of my old self coming back.  I do not base how I feel about myself on what others think and say, but this bit of success has been very nice!  I feel such a sense of pride in being able to work through all of the stress and produce results despite all that has been going on in my life.

Here's to moving forward with life!

[Tibbles]

Good on you. Keeping our heads when at work can be really hard with everything else that goes on at home. You've earned those successes. 

[Learning_curve74]

Congratulations workinprogress! 

Isn't it funny how things can seem to change in just a few days? And yet, I bet you're pretty much still the same person you were last week, right?    Keep it up!

[workinprogress]

Thanks guys!  It's been such a struggle. 

The bottom line is, I hate how I feel in my marriage.  There's no communication, no affection, no sex, nothing!  To be honest, I'm very angry about it!

I have been seriously considering getting a divorce.  I almost called a lawyer today.  I just can't seem to get the strength up to do it.  I keep thinking of my youngest two kids (15,18).  I don't want to break their hearts, but I can't live like this.

I have found out that I am strong enough to endure this, but I just don't want to anymore.