3 weeks NC

[Loosestrife]

Now 3weeks NC and still struggling. However, the fear of going back seems to have surpassed the fear of losing my r/s. I think the thought of going through the last 3 weeks of pain again (which is inevitable if I recycle again) is just too much. I miss my ex like crazy, but at the same time, I'm scared of seeing her again. I'm starting to think I was scared of her in the r/s but just got used to it.  Can anyone relate to any of this?

[Darsha500]

I definitely relate LS,

I think about the same type of things. This letting go process has been so grueling. To reattach just to have to endure this pain again would be so foolish. I often tell myself (or reassure myself) "There is no going back." It would be like going back to a torture chamber. Who in their right mind would do such a thing? I'm being critical. Because I have gone back. Not saying I was in my right mind though.

I too cant imagine going back... .And yet I sometimes fantasize about the possibility. I'll keep it right there, as a fantasy.

We will keep moving forward. And let go of the past, little by little.

[Loosestrife]

Thanks. Glad you're here with me 

[rotiroti]

I felt the same thing during my detachment phase. When I really started to peel away the emotions bit by bit, I realized that I didn't miss her one bit, but rather I had missed the idea of her.

Does that make sense?

When you wrote that you would be afraid to see her, it brought that memory back... .stay strong and know that you are heading the right direction, one day at a time!

[Loosestrife]

I felt the same thing during my detachment phase. When I really started to peel away the emotions bit by bit, I realized that I didn't miss her one bit, but rather I had missed the idea of her.

Does that make sense?

When you wrote that you would be afraid to see her, it brought that memory back... .stay strong and know that you are heading the right direction, one day at a time!

Yes, that makes sense