I apologize for my high volume of threads lately, new things seem to pop up in my mind daily... .
So what started the idea of this thread?Recently I've been seeing some threads speaking about unstable sense of self in BPD... .meaning they may not know "who they are" in relation to clothing , social group , sexual preference etc etc... .
So today my BPDex opened her account from Private to Public. Do I actively seek out her profile to see if she's changed it back and fourth ? No... I've stopped trying to relate things to me or her wanting to get my attention in any case the reason I knew she did this is because in my news feed it said "your friend C & K ... have liked BPDex picture" So I take the invitation... .hmm let's see what's new? It's odd but she seems way different... I don't even remember dating this girl in a sense... / I'm struggling to pin point all the pain that she actually caused me... she just seems brand new. . That's a different thread in itself. . But what I noticed is she has a lot of new photos with a girl let's say if she has posted 25 in a three week span will see 8 have this girl in it... whether it be at an event or taking a road trip or whatever it may be its just them
Originally I thought nothing of it young girls will be young girls... "I love you , so much" blah blah blah then I start looking at the pictures closer... the events , fun times, videos, a road trip? "out here with my main girl *couples emoji* *hearts* I'm starting to think what the heck?. then I started thinking deeper and thought wait , is there a possibility this is her gf? Or something like that?
Has anyone seen or experienced something like this? This is essentially a 2 parter I suppose
When I met her - sporty , colorful clothes , alot of earings, pinkish hair...
Switched to a more punk rock kind of look - which switched to a confusing stage where she would wear contacts that weren't a "normal" eye color like a purplish green... which then went back to sporty ... she is now in a classy stage, fewer earings. . Dark simple black / brown hair(according to friends) ... but it can switch on a dime with a septum piercing and snake bites because she has it all...
I'm getting off track but my main point is has anyone experienced major major major changes in your pwBPD? All the changes I mentioned above are in a 12 month span... .also curious about if anyone's pwBPD switched to the opposite sex? Or would you just put this down as a simple new Idiolized friend/person in her life?
I don't even know why my mind put me in this situation... .I'm such a deep thinker :/
Thoughts?