Day One of NC

[hollycat]

Well, it happened last night. After hours and hours of texts between BpdH and me, it was painfully obvious we were getting no where in resolving anything. He, in his opinion, is still the abused, neglected, lied to, cheated on Husband, who only did everything possible to make me happy. He is angry I text with his mother on occasion and accuses us of becoming allies and "conspiring" to tell him he is a sick and "horrible scumbag." Which shocks me, because neither she nor I would ever refer to him as such. It's all a loop in his own mind and he believes it.

Anyway, the kicker was this. A few weeks ago, I planned a quick visit to South Carolina to see him. To get some of my things from his place and to spend some time with him. Perhaps we could work things out. So, I made a 12 hour drive, one way to see him, only to find out, after I got there, at the same time he was texting me on the road, he was also sextexting some other woman! I was heartbroken when I saw the texts. Frankly, it makes me sick and he refuses to give any apology at all. When he came to see me for Thanksgiving, which ended poorly and way before last Thursday, her texts were still on his phone. Finally, last night, I told him I was physically ill from it and I was done. I ended by saying: You will not hear from me again.

I am so sad.