Introduction

[Shaven]

I have becomed overwhelmed by her dysfunction.  I feel bruised and battered.  Her madness is driving me insane. I am totally lost. Even my health has become comprised. I have headaches everyday.  I am beginning to feel hate in my heart. I am thinking to harm her for all the years of harm she has caused me. It's time to get out. It has probably been time to get out long time. I feel demotivated and drained. I can't even seem to find the strength and courage to contrive an exit strategy and plan. Honestly i feel hopeless.

We have so much that's tied up together. Nothing more important than the son we have together though. He is one year old. Such a joy. She is really a horrible parent. She doesn't give much time to parenting. How can i leave him with her. We run an organization and business together also. How do i just walk away from something i founded and built? We share a home that I pay for. When I look at it, it seems as if we are tied to the hip. How could I have been so naive and foolish. My existence with this woman is nothing short of 'HELLISH!' I'M BURNING IN HELL!

[PLEASE - NO RUN MESSAGES]

PLEASE - NO RUN MESSAGES This is a high level discussion board for solving ongoing, day-to-day relationship conflicts. Members may appear frustrated but they are here for constructive solutions to problems. This is not a place for relationship "stay" or "leave" discussions. Please read the specific guidelines for this group.

[babyducks]

Shaven,

You've done a brave thing by making your first post here.   It's a beginning to working your way to a better place.

Being in a relationship with a person who suffers from a mental illness can be wounding and damaging to us as we strive to keep up with the constant ups and downs.

I hope you don't mind if I ask a question or two.   Do you have any support where you are now?   Family, friends, a trusted member of the clergy, a therapist of your own?

It can be helpful for us to have people to talk to who understand what we are going through.    You will find members here who can relate to your unique circumstances.   We can help support you by giving you a safe space to share your concerns.

From what you write there sounds like there is a lot of conflict in your relationship right now.   That would drain anyone.    Finding a way to reduce the conflict will help in the long term.  What's important right now is that everyone in your family is safe, you, your son and her.    Can you consider taking a time out when things escalate?   Saying I need to take a break right now, I am going to the store, the park, for a walk, and I will be back in an hour.

'ducks