After 7 months of NC, I looked at her Facebook page and saw my ex is with somebody new. The strange thing is that I was fine, and didn't even have feelings for her as she was an emotional bully, and severe NPD type, with self confessed NPD traits that her therapist stated that she had. I was lucky to get away from her and I dropped her cold turkey after she for the last time, showed zero empathy for a loss in my family, and even started an argument about FB 2 hours after I buried my mother. I am suddenly depressed and wonder if a NPD/BPD type can brainwash a person, as I cant explain why I am possessed at the thought of her suddenly, and know she is awful for a relationship. She has literally been dumped by every single man she has ever had a relationship with over being so "intense" and self absorbed. I blocked her on Facebook today and her inner circle, but cannot block her business page which keeps popping up. I also un-followed mutual friends and wouldn't see anything about her unless I looked. Why am I suddenly depressed? What was triggered? I had zero contact and felt empowered for once in my life for dropping her over abuse,and suddenly that anxiety of being around her or even missing her kicked in and I have not slept since. I even have some jealousy over her new guy, and cant figure out for the life of me, why I would? Something deeply emotional has hit me like a truck and I need some advice and some sort of idea what just happened to me and how to get over it fast and support on why I am lucky to have gotten away from her. I think my dark thoughts about life is triggered by this and lack of sleep is making me think really dark thoughts, so I am trying to rebound. What would I be thinking this way when she was the worst partner that I can ever imagine being with? NPD enslaved? Need feedback fast , i am fading and heart is feeling a little pain. I wont kill myself or anything, but wth is going on? I cant believe I went fro 100% over her to suddenly anxiety and depression and jealousy etc... Would you block all mutual friend on FB? Deactivate FB? I have a business page so this effects my business because i have to have a personal FB page to manage it. Rescue needed!
