[Hallo
Right at the moment the focus is on one of my four lovely daughters, but the truth is that I believe that this is a family malaise coming from both sides of the family.
Looking back at my youth and marriage, and having accepted bipolar as a prognosis for myself and x husband, the BPD symptoms closely fit behaviours and make the most sense.
I have discussed this with some of my children, who did not feel it applied to them.
One of my girls who has been on and off bipolar meds for years is visiting me at the moment from UK, where she has struggled for years to overcome her condition.
Listening to her tales of broken relationships and inability to adapt socially, behaviours etc. has has rung the BPD bell and so I have decided to pursue this route.
She is low and suicidal at the moment. I have insisted she go back on her meds and she is sleeping at least.
She has recently had a manic high and distanced herself from her support network including her job and communal digs.
She has burned all the bridges to her life and community.
I have discussed the possible diagnosis of BPD with her, which made her anxious at first, but she has said that it does explain many of her behaviours.
She is sad and angry and has lost her shining faith.
I am sad and angry to now have to carry this burden again.
I was married to her father for many years and supported him emotionally.
(Although it was reciprocal in the early years as I had breakdowns then.)
I have had a lot of healing and am mostly at peace now.
I have a winter hibernation which I understand and ride out.
Herewith then my intro.
Regards
Gypsydancer.
