I'm reading a good book on CD
Hmm I guess I just fall back on my faith, I believe I cannot change myself without a higher power, that's my belief.
I guess doing anything positive is essential, including taking negative words out of my vocabulary. Can't, couldn't shouldn't wouldn't.
Focus on today, the here and now, don't dwell in the past or future.
Realize the real enemy of my soul is fear.
Fear keeps me from living life.
Helping others, not enable them.
Focus on me! Recovery is #1
Be around healthy supportive people.
Yesterday I was at my dentist and started talking to the assistant and we both have addiction in our lives, family, friends, we are all a little broken. BPDs maybe much more so but when I can distinguish her as a human from her illness it helps ease the memories of her painful abuse.
I pet the rattle snake and I get bit
How many more times I allow myself to get bit
My choice.
Oh, and did I mention we have choices? Lol
One of the first things my exBPDgf did was deny me choices. And my choice was to relinquish my control to an individual who couldn't wipe her own bottom without my help.
Crazy crazy crazy, like a circus it may be fun to visit occasionally but for heaven sake, know when it's time to leave. I cannot live a normal life (adreniline) watching dangerous animals perform and hi wire acts make me a nervous wreak. Blah
Never did like monkeys, now I know why... .
Oh man I need rest
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When 739+ people (And counting) tell you to run away from someone because they KNOW how sick they really are the best course of action in my humble opinion is to start to listen to them and run, RUN FOREST RUN... .stupid penis always got me into trouble. ... .gurrrr
Monkeys and peanuts... .guessing I was the peanut? Yuck!