Not coping well

[LilMe]

I am having a really hard time. Not as much with uBPD, but now our 7 year old son. We have been to 2 sessions of family counseling, but I'm not sure the counselor is getting it. He is saying things and acting like his father. Hitting us, constantly cursing, acting out aggressively, refusing to do anything. The counselor just said it is to be expected and gave me a paper star chart. He has never been like this before.

On top of that, my mom broke her hip and my adult daughter has finals next week so I don't have much support right now. UBPD still won't  let me have any of our belongings so we have no fridge, no washer, no dishes, few clothes, little furniture. I am also pretty sick and can't seem to shake it. We have no insurance and little money.

So, if I knew how, I think I would give up. But I'm not even sure how to do that! For the last hour DS7 has poked, cursed, hit, yelled, and woke up the baby 3 times on purpose. He has run outside and is now jumping on the mattress on the floor we all sleep on. Thanks for letting me vent.

[JerryRG]

Hello Lil me

I don't have any advice, just that you're not alone, hang on to hope and things can change for the better. I have found that in my recovery I need to stay grounded, my feet need a solid place to stand to weather these storms. No matter what happens in life we only have so much control. Pick the things we can control and let go of the rest. We can only handle so much stress and letting go allows us to rest.

Take care of you first!

I hope you feel better, prayers being sent your way