I guess you are lucky you didn't marry her. Sometimes I feel like we are on a high horse thinking they will regret it. I suppose there will always be with people who say they will miss us when we are gone or they will need us one day, but I don't know. It seems they always have someone else. We probably did allot more than some people would have, I know I did and had people tell me I did. He used to ask "no one else would ever put up with me would they?" and I would say, "no".
But he proved me wrong. Is he happy, no- he told me he will never be happy. I think he thinks he fits better with someone younger than him. He thinks because they worked together they were a better fit too. I think he is enjoying the attention he thinks a baby will get. I think he is starting to see that lots of people have kids and it's not some special unique thing that will get him all of the attention he wants though. I hate to say it, but I still see what is happening on Facebook. He is so obviously trying to get attention. He keeps making at least 3 new "friends" a day. There are allot of people with kids. His sister just had a baby too, so I think he thinks he will get his parents attention now. It's kind of sad really. He is trying to be "normal" and I am convinced that is part of the problem with me is that we lost our child and I had a hysterectomy and that was it-no kids. I am not much of a kid person though, they say when it is your own it's different. I suppose, but I can't even go there, since I have not and will never at this point. I think he had it in his head that this was what he needed to do. He told me he didn't want kids when we were together, so he was either mirroring me or he meant it. I know he always told me he didn't want to pass on his disorder to anyone else. His Mom told him to get a vasectomy.
I think somewhere along the line he decided i was too old for him and came up with all kinds of reasons to not be with me. He also kept asking me if I was sad we lost our baby. He asked me once if we could have a baby, way after the surgery. I thought that was mean. He actually told his friends that asked how we met and ended up married, that I got pregnant and he had to marry me! It was humiliating! He would do it right in front of me! I wonder what they are thinking now that he has another gf pregnant! I bet he will say the same about her if he marries her! I really how long he will last with her. This is my torture part... .I want to think that no one else will put up with him as we originally said. Thing is, there are other people that are as kind and caring and messed up as us!
