Just broke up (again)

[Hopeful07]

My boyfriend is undiagnosed BPD and we broke up today.(I've posted a bunch in the improving forum). This is the 4th or 5th major breakup we've had in 4 years. It feels different, I guess because I feel different. I learned about this illness last august and since he had another episode last month I've been pushing treatment and calling him out on stuff that I see. I feel like I used to coddle him. I've been miserable for a few weeks and he knows this. I think my pushing was too much but I'm not sure I care, I couldn't live with his behavior, specifically the other women. I felt like I had nothing to lose. He's deep in denial and not getting the help he needs, and he won't.  He seemed so angry with me, telling me he doesn't have it. I'm so tired of denial. I feel so sad because I do love him and I miss him but I could only do so much. It's hard

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[Xstang77]

I know the feeling and your deffinetly not alone here, my best advice is be prepared for the withdrawals that are to come,I'm 5 weeks out,feel free to message me as a line of mutual support, I have a few I do that with here and sometimes it can really be helpful to have someone to relate with when your surrounded by people who haven't actually experienced it.

[Hopeful07]

Thanks! That's a really good idea. I'm feeling good right now, which surprises me. I'm sure that won't last though.