1yr relationship (trying to make back up) advise, or more in depth info

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I've been dating this girl with BPD for almost a yr now, coming into the relationship she told me what she had and i didnt know what i was getting myself into. Mostly every fight was cause 90% of her doing, i would say i am a very strong minded person so it didnt bother me. In regards towards the fight in the beginning i would apologize, i would fight with her like a "normal" person would (that became bad, cause i just fueled her rage) I would take her verbal abuse, i took all the projecting and i just responded as a "normal" fight.

As i got more into the relationship i read up about some of the stuff about BPD but the fights would stil happen and i just didnt talk back when i knew it was her BPD, she would always say " i was ignoring her " after telling her i am not going to talk becuz you arent yourself atm, eventually she got to me we raged and then all was fine. Some of the fights included her saying to leave and so i did (as in breaking up) sometimes i would threaten to break up (sometimes it would snap her back to herself, most of the times she used it to start fights saying i would leave)

After a year in the relationship i left, about 2weeks later i realized that i AM in love with her and i want to make that commitment of being with her. Thou during the relationship she was always fighting (when i would want to leave) for us to stay and she always saying that she would change. Now she keeps bring up the past about " look how all the times when we were in a relationship i fought for us to stay and now you want to come back "

2weeks after i broke up with her, i found out she met some guy from tinder and after 2weeks from then meeting she tells me they are friends but spending the weekend by his house, with his mom & cousin. She tells me she loves me but she cant picture a future of us together and MAYBE we can try again 1yr from now, becuz the whole time we were in the relationship i cause her emotional abuse and that i have an anger problem (that 1 i can man up too, i have a lil temper) ... .now it seems like im the one begging her to be in a relationship and she is carefree from me, but when try to leave her life she tells me how she wants me in her life and that we can be friends. (we stil talk to this day) but its eating me alive cause its like she's living 2 lives. 

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