Always Hoping
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What is your sexual orientation: Straight
Who in your life has "personality" issues: Child
Relationship status: married
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« on: October 21, 2024, 04:14:11 PM » |
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I have hesitated writing this post. I found this site accidentally while searching for reasons that my adult (23 years old) son has said and done things that he has done. I don't know what is wrong with my son and have been searching and searching for answers.
Can someone be partly BPD? Can someone be both a mild narcissist and mild borderline? Because that is what it seems like he is. He is extremely empathetic, but at the same time is extremely selfish and self centered. He is thoughtful and kind and loving. But he uses people and has exploited both myself and my other son .
He has joined a fundamentalist christian cult, also married into it, which just feeds into his feelings of superiority and judgementalism.
His behaviors, joining this other family (we used to be very close to this other family but I had to put up very strong boundaries for various reasons and they will no longer talk to us) that has abused and harassed his younger brother especially, he has exploited several people in my family financially (myself, my younger son, and now my oldest daughter too). He NEVER pays anyone back, and I've recently found out he has outright stolen money from myself and my other son. He barely pays his bills, even the ones we are cosigners on.
He basically had a nervous breakdown 2 years ago. He stopped working full time at his lawn care business, and it has whittled down to almost nothing. Yet he keeps spending money like it's water.
He owes me over $15,000, his brother over $1000, and his sister $500. That doesn't include all of it, either. He "forgot" that he is still on my phone plan and I'm paying his bill for years now, even though he is married and doesn't live here anymore.
He ill do anything this family wants. He is with them, and studying the Bible with them, several times a week. Yet unless he needs us, he doesn't even return a text. Not even from his mother.
His wife, indoctrinated since birth, has cast us out as we are no longer good enough because my oldest daughter has come out as bisexual. And my younger son is "shunned" by her family now because he is sinning by dating. Yes, dating. My younger son has been betrayed by his best friend (the other girl from this cult family), and more importantly, his brother. He almost had to be hospitalized for depression from the harassment and emotional abuse he was subjected to.
And yet my younger son sits here knowing that his bother, that he has always been loving and loyal to no matter what happened, is with this other family all the time. And They don't want him. Even though the 4 of them used to hang out and do stuff together. He is rejected, left out, and that went on for years even before the shunning. He was shunned Because he dates girls. (purity culture-they don't believe in dating or even 2 members of the opposite sex driving alone together in a car) It is very painful. And very bizarre.
But my main concern is my older son's acceptance and compliance with all of this. KNOWING it is hurting his family. I have made my thoughts and feelings on all of this very clear for years. But he continues to spend his time and money on this other family and only sees us for special occasions or if he needs something (he uses our driveway and garage since he is in an apartment ).
He will no longer attend any holidays that we would celebrate together for his first 23 years of his life. They are sinful and wicked and blasphemous according to the cult leader and he of course agrees with that.
There are many other things that have me questioning if he has bpd...he used to be so damn attached to me. I think I was his FP, and I think he transferred that to his wife. He will steamroll anyone for her.
He has many narcissistic tendencies, and that unfortunately runs in my husband's family. I know he's not a narcissist, but he is so incredibly self centered that it's disheartening.
Even though I may not be taken seriously because I am his mother, I have to say it. My son as a young child was one of the most special, remarkable, loving, kind and thoughtful people I've ever known. He loved Emily Dickinson poems, painting, flowers, and writing me notes to make sure I knew how much he loved me. He was fun and happy.
Over the past 10 years, ironically since this other family has been in our lives and their religion started to be taught to my children behind my back, and since he was told he will burn in a lake of fire if he doesn't say a certain prayer and believe certain things, his mental health has been in a decline.
He used to play the piano, read novels, and enjoy so many things that are now gone. Now he only is allowed to read the bible over and over again, or other religious books. He is very depressed, but denies it.
He does admit to severe anxiety and constant worry.
Can all this be just severe depression? I am concerned, and outright scared because he seems to be 2 different people. The nice one, and the asshole. I KNOW my son that I used to know is still there, but then what explains all the horrible things he has said and done? What explains how he can exploit his own parents and brother? What explains how he can steal from us? What explains being able to have these relationships with people that have abused his family and thinks they are all going to burn in hell?
His brother was his most loyal supporter. He loved him more than anything in the world. And he was betrayed. I'm angry, too, but mostly scared that there is something so wrong with him.
I want to add that he admits to almost none of this being indicative of anything but minor issues....he makes excuses, twists things to make it seem like my other son did something wrong to be shunned, etc.....it reminds me of DARVO.
Any help or opinions are welcome. I have so much more I could write, but I fear I've already written too much.
thank you
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