Dreams of my ex

[Family Court Strategies: When Your Partner Has BPD OR NPD Traits.]

This last night I had a set of dreams that seemed to reflect my current situation, only fast forwarded maybe 3-5 years. In the dream, I was living in a downtown apartment with a job in my field of study and I was still kind of alone, but not too worried about it. My ex appeared in my bed that we had while we were in school and she was in tears and apologized profusely. I kissed her hand and said it was done and that it was "truly, truly over." I then looked at my phone to look at jobs.

It was basically my current situation just more dramatized/idealized. I woke up with a severe feeling of anguish and just walked around my dad's house cursing to myself.

I really thought I had been feeling better, then this dream happened and now I feel back at square one for some reason. I had a HUGE/RIDICULOUS urge to text her and tell her about it when I woke up and realized it was a dream. I've honestly never had a dream that felt so real.

That urge to text is probably why I'm making a post here. Thanks for being here and no one needs to reply. I'm only getting this feeling off my chest.

[Caretaker2]

This last night I had a set of dreams that seemed to reflect my current situation, only fast forwarded maybe 3-5 years. In the dream, I was living in a downtown apartment with a job in my field of study and I was still kind of alone, but not too worried about it. My ex appeared in my bed that we had while we were in school and she was in tears and apologized profusely. I kissed her hand and said it was done and that it was "truly, truly over." I then looked at my phone to look at jobs.

It was basically my current situation just more dramatized/idealized. I woke up with a severe feeling of anguish and just walked around my dad's house cursing to myself.

I really thought I had been feeling better, then this dream happened and now I feel back at square one for some reason. I had a HUGE/RIDICULOUS urge to text her and tell her about it when I woke up and realized it was a dream. I've honestly never had a dream that felt so real.

That urge to text is probably why I'm making a post here. Thanks for being here and no one needs to reply. I'm only getting this feeling off my chest.

[g2outfitter]

Yeah... .it's bad enough they take up so much space in our minds during the day you think they would give us a break when we sleep.

Sorry about your night.  I just had one myself.

I had been 11 days NC when I got an email from her.  It was innocent enough, tying up a loose end of me moving out so there was no recycle but it sure gave me a shot of anxiety when I saw the email.  It seemed to spark dreams of her all night.

No need to curse yourself.  It just shows that there will always be triggers no matter how far along you are in the process.  I know I have lots of work to do.  One day at a time.

[Sadly]

Well I will reply, I have spent the last two years not being heard, I didn't like it. You sound like you are getting yourself well sorted which is great, well done. Dreams are weird, they pick a little area in your subconscious and weave it to what feels like a reality. It wasn't and isn't and neither are you back at square one. Go back and read your posts from square one and see how far you have come. Good to post here instead of texting there  
Love from
Sadly x

[Idsrvt2]

I will reply too.   Youre not alone, I have dreams every single night.  I wake up so mad that Im even dreaming of him.  I had one the other night of him showing up at the place I am moving to with an Easter basket. There have been so many dreams I dont remember most of them.  A friend of mine keeps telling me its the way the mind processes what has happened to us... that the mind is trying to work thru things as we sleep.   It makes some sense.    Before all this I rarely remembered dreams at all.   and like your dream they are very real.  I wake up and I know i cant contact him as we have PO in place.