Another day of criticism and ST

[Yellowbee]

 
So now we are travelling and I am away from home and of course my h chooses to criticise me. It is very silent here too. I wish I knew what little I know now way back when. The more I read of Walking on Eggshells the closer I get to understanding. I know I am not a trained therapist but knowledge is power and any good reliable knowledge I can get helps me deal and understand.
I realize that since I married this BPD I have never really known happiness. He was a big mistake.
To put mildly, I am unhappy and very disappointed in myself.

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[Nonorway]

I have been reading Walking on Eggshells too.

I have been trying not to get lost in feeling disappointed with myself. The thing I see with BPD is that it takes our strengths and turns it against us. That is not bad or something to beat ourselves up about. It is just a thing and we can start to look to change it.

Hang in there! It will get better.