In some ways it will be nice to be single - although this might be kind of selfish. You don't have to make any compromises as you can do what you want.
But I would also like some companionship. It would be nice to have someone to go out to dinner with, or to go on vacation with. These are things that I haven't really been able to enjoy for a few years as I was always on eggshells. Having intimacy with someone, not necessarily sexual intimacy, is important and I miss that.
Even when I go on golfing trips with my buddies there is a 50-50 chance that she would freak out and be lashing out at me via phone calls, texts or emails. So hopefully that is less likely to happen.
Oh I relate to everything you wrote here. I went on a spontaneous road trip with my kids for my bday on the weekend something that my BPDh would have had lots of things to say about... .it was nice to not have to worry about the commentary! I also have been on eggshells for years... .and feel slightly guilty in saying I am enjoying the single part, at least for now. I am only away from him since 10/31.