Hiscaru
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Gender: 
What is your sexual orientation: Straight
Who in your life has "personality" issues: Ex-romantic partner
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« on: April 28, 2019, 04:21:39 PM » |
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Hello everyone.
I am really struggling. My ex and I broke up over a month ago, and I don't know how to detach myself. I miss her, I miss being with her and calling her mine, and I miss the good times we had. She cheated on me twice, and decided not to come back to me after I offered to forgive her. Since then I have started a no contact period, blocking her on all social media and only keeping her number in my phone. No contact was going great, it was two weeks of what you would expect. I focused on myself, went through some therapy, and went through all the emotional pot holes of recovering. I grieved, I became angry at myself for letting this happen and what she did to me, and I become depressed. I learned through this that there was more to life then this.
Week three is when things took a turn. She reached out to me. Let me preface this by saying that she previously told me she did not even want to be friends. She told me to basically leave and never come back. She called me and I answered it, foolishly. She warned me not to smoke pot, apparently It was being laced at the time and she was calling me back had a seizure and hit her chin on the floor, cracking it open and having to get eleven stitches. I thanked her for calling me and told her to feel better. We were on the phone for only a few minutes, but I missed talking to her and this brought back so much pain and anguish.
Another week went by and she texted me again. She told me she was having an anxiety attack and that I was the only one who could help her. I texted her and let her know that I couldn't be that person anymore, and I couldn't be the person she went to for help. This is when it really hurt. Knowing she could still come back to me as if she did no wrong and expect me to help her. I was hesitant but I did in the end offer to help. She read my text, but did not say anything at all.
Here we are again, three days later. I really don't know what to think anymore. She trashed me, left me broken and having to pick up all the pieces. I miss her, a lot, but I know that I can't get back with her. She doesn't want that and I respect it. She did what she did for a reason. I guess I'm just confused. She is sending me mixed signals. Is she looking out for me and reaching out to me because she misses me? Is this her way of trying to tell me she made a huge mistake?
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