the hard part about these relationships is that no matter how much you improve, you will not necessarily make your loved one an easier person to live with, or love.
you may cope better. your partner may meet you half way, and you may see real improvement in your relationship. or you may find an even greater distance that ultimately kills the relationship.
it varies. but you love a difficult person who will always struggle, and if you choose this relationship, even with marked improvement, you will always struggle.
Agree with this 100% When you are with a pwBPD, you will be in a relationship that will never, ever be 50/50. Never be devoid of difficulty. For it to work out for the long term, it will involve a good deal of acceptance, and losing some of yourself.
At this point in my r/s, I am already accepting some things I will never have as long as we stay together. Whether I can be happy with that is a constantly re-evaluating internal struggle.
Right now I am just working on getting a few hours personal time per week. My personal time has been almost zero for the past year. Given W's pattern, my best hope at this point is that I can find a way to achieve some space, resume some hobbies, have time for my career, while W gains some ability to manage her own emotional affairs.