shocked

[jj2121]

I just wanted to post about this because it confused me even more.

My ex left me months ago, but before we were together she was with her ex for about 3 years, who she had a kid with and I had heard she cheated on him.

Anyway a while back I had put her username for a social network site into google and was shocked to find topless pictures of her on swinger sites, also a comment on a forum in there talking about possibly having her child adopted, she was pregnant at the time.

It was 2 years ago since she was on that, but it is still there.

I am just shocked this girl seemed so innocent to me and told me her ex was violent.

She also seemed to act shy sexually with me, was that all an act?

She is UBPD, but after reading everywhere and her telling me something was wrong, I am about 90% sure she is a Borderline WAIF type, the description was just too accurate.

I just can't believe it though, made me feel sick to my stomach, also a bit sorry for her.

[GreenMango]

JJ for your own detachment you've got stop googling her.  We can talk about the disorder and the why's - I'm guessing youve lived the contradiction so you probably know.

I can't imagine anything more likely to keep a person interested than a few naked pictures - even in morbidly fascinating way.

Why hurt yourself like this?  

[jj2121]

JJ for your own detachment you've got stop googling her.  We can talk about the disorder and the why's - I'm guessing youve lived the contradiction so you probably know.

I can't imagine anything more likely to keep a person interested than a few naked pictures - even in morbidly fascinating way.

Why hurt yourself like this?  

My therapist told me the same thing. I always suspected something like that, but that just confirmed it for me. I do really need to forget about this person completely and move on. Made me feel sick, I nearly contacted her, but I am glad to say I did not.