The Final Straw

[KHC_33]

Yesterday my ex typed me a very long email telling me that he is a survivor with his mental issues and that if he knew I wouldn't have been there he would have never got with me. He went on and on how normal and healthier his life is... .oh and he mentioned that God had plans for us but MY OWN FLESH I am doing what I want. Wow.

I was pretty angry and left my boyfriend/my girls went for a very long walk. The part I was most angered about was when I took out loans to help him and now he is screwing me over. I am forced to pay. He sold everything in our house and took ALL the money. He went on a shopping spree! While I was in torment when I left (staying at my girlfriends), he went into my bank account and took money from me when I was supporting MY GIRLS. It finally came to a head... .keeping the lines open for loans was a joke. We all knew it would come to this.

What was worse was I wasn't open with my boyfriend about the loans. My counselor had told me that it wasn't something that we needed to be discussing at this point in time. Well, my boyfriend wants honesty. He knew I had my reasons. I hate money... .he also knows that during this 14 years of his ex there are debts as well. He asked if there was anything more that my ex could do? So that we have a clean slate.

My dad wanted to know exactly how much - figures he wants to rescue me and pay off my debts. NO thank you. I can take care of it myself. Even though I hate dealing with the debts and angry that it is not mine I still have to deal with the burden. I knew I should have never done it. I felt so shamed and he made me feel like I was obligated to it.

I now have secured the NC wall completely. I deleted my facebook account, I deleted my email accounts and started a new one, I will have to change my cell # but for now he cannot pay the 600 owning so things will be pretty quiet.

My last response was That is fine about the money, I will take are of it since you don't want to be man enough to take care of your responsibility. I told him to move on, and let it go. That we have nothing to discuss then if the loans aren't going to be paid by him. I told him to stay out of my life.

If he responds my account has been deleted. He is always amount being right. I don't care anymore. It's past. My Facebook isn't worth it if I have no peace of mind and people are pretending to be my friends.

At least now things get really simple.

I am reading a good book call LIES at the Altar. First part was a wake up & confirmation for me.

[ShadowDancer]

The final straw? I have a whole barn full... .oh my! I'm not going in there