Hi tamamaral, good to see you on the main boards
Sounds like it's wearing you down this being different thing and that you'd prefer being more main stream and so-called "ordinary". It's not a BPD trait per say to want to be different. Changing facts to fit with feeling, however, is. Like stating one day that "I live like this because a,b,c" and the next day it's "because f,g,h" and they would get annoyed if you bring up "a,b,c". Their reality is changing, it's not constant, because they're being lead by their feelings. I don't know it that's a bit what you meant?
Where do you stand on this, would you like to have a car? An oven?
I'm reaching my limits, and can't stop thinking about leaving him.
These relationships can be so hard. Have you had a chance to look at the articles on the right under choosing a path? --------->
They're based on expert advice and working through them is a way to come to a conclusion about you relationship