she is moving out. Why should I care?

Today was a hard day. My gf has BPD and today she was out looking at apartments in another city roughly 40 minutes away. A huge part of me is relieved. I no longer have to watch her abuse pills, keep me up all nite, the yelling, walking on eggshells, watching her post nasty things about me on facebook when she is in one of her "moods" slandering me to whoever will listen with nothing by lies and total distortion of the truth. I could probably go on and on about all the nasty things she has done, and at the same time I could go on and on about all of the things I have done for her in the last 2 years.

She does not have a dollar to her name. I do not have any idea how she thinks she is going to support herself on her own with her son ( not mine ) She said she will be out of here on the first of February ( the day before my birthday )

Why should I even care? how could I even have feelings for someone who has been so nasty and negative for the last year. We have been together for 2 years now, the first year was amazing.

Sorry If I am ranting. I am filled with anxiety right now.



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