I feel again. It has been so long. Do you?

[Soulsisters]

Hi,

How many of you feel again after leaving?

The raw pain of the bad stuff and the pure joy of one kind comment from a stranger?

I didn't realize how truly numb that I had become over the years.  I only knew that I felt like I was nothing and stupid.  I must have felt that way for far too long, because having true emotions is so hard and so wonderful. 

I found myself crying the other day for all of the losses, he took so much from me.  But it actually was like finding an old friend that I have not known for so long.  It hurt awful, but I also felt alive.

A stranger complimented me the other day, and said I have life in my eyes.  That made me cry too because I feel the life again.  I am not over this nightmare by any means, but I have "life" in my eyes again. 

It is good. 

[Monarch Butterfly]

I'm not quite out the door, but am leaving. Have some stuff to work out before I go.

Anyway, just in this last month I have experienced so much freedom, happiness, just being out an talking to people. Saying hi and not getting into a huge fight about afterwards... . It is so good to be free.

It's a gift - life is. I believe it should be lived to the max. I feel like a bird let out of its cage and now have the ability to really stretch out my wings for the first time. Imagine when I really take off and have no more binds with him... . I'lll be soaring! God I cant wait!

[Aussie0zborn]

What a lovely post. It's like the sun rising, bathing you in all its warmth and glory after you've been in a cold, damp God forsaken place for too long, isn't it? Glad you feel it.