Opening Up Again

[myself]

I was sitting in tears with the sun shining on my face. Letting go of the past. I was shut down in the r/s. NC closed the door to her, and who I was with her. I've been feeling like a turtle, withdrawn into a shell for safety. With good reason. I realized today I am not being myself with so many walls up. I see I was protecting myself from myself. I'm moving forward within these boundaries, and am opening up again.

[node4]

Keep doing it, I am in the same place as you. It gets easier. You will be you again no matter how much you don't currently feel that way.

[love4meNOTu]

yes... me too... .

I feel like a spring flower beginning to bloom. I'm still in the bud stage, but at least I'm growing!

As long as we are green, we can grow.

much love,

L

[Ceide]

You will be an even better you!  

This journey takes such courage and strength.  I am grateful for everyone on here, helping me to open up again, too.

[arn131arn]

I was sitting in tears with the sun shining on my face. Letting go of the past. I was shut down in the r/s. NC closed the door to her, and who I was with her. I've been feeling like a turtle, withdrawn into a shell for safety. With good reason. I realized today I am not being myself with so many walls up. I see I was protecting myself from myself. I'm moving forward within these boundaries, and am opening up again.

Myself, can you expand on this? I have been NC for a little bit and was curious what you mean by this?

Thanks,

Arn