Please don't justify me

[waver]

I feel soo alone now

I've been phisically abused by my my H tonight

I"ve been emotionally abused by my uBPD tonight

I have at least 6 men depend on me - more or less

But no one to be count on

I know this is my fault, more or less

But this is my birthday

Please drop a line to feel I'm not alone in the whole world

[cosmonaut]

I'm sorry you're feeling so alone right now.   :'(  What happened with you and your pwBPD?  You said you were physically abused - are you ok?  Tell us what's going on.  We're here for you!   

[MissyM]

You are not alone.  Are you safe now?  No one should blame you, you are the victim.

[DiamondSW]

Please find somewhere safe to go today and tomorrow... . somewhere with a friendly face.

I'm so sorry to hear you are alone on your bday.  My prayers are with you

[waver]

Dear Cosmonaut, MissyM, DiamondSW, thank you very much for your kind words and care.

I am safe. I have broken some "eggshells" yesterday. 

Learning ourselves is a long process, and I feel I am still only at the beginning of the road.

[cosmonaut]

I'm really glad to hear that you are safe, waver.  Please take care of yourself.  Don't stay in a dangerous situation.  If you are being abused, please tell someone.

It is indeed a long road to knowing ourselves.  I also know how exhausting and frustrating (and heartbreaking) it can be having a SO with BPD.  Hang in there.  We're here if you need anything.

[Fly Like An Eagle]

Waver, I'm right there with you.  I am also struggling as to what to do.  It seems so easy to walk away at times, but breaking through and taking that final step is so incredibly difficult.  Keep us posted.