You sound a bit better than you did, last time you were posting... .I think what you are doing is suiting you pretty well.
Work is getting boring. My boss told me at first that it was going to be 50/50 management/software development... .and lately it's been all software development. It's just not challenging... .I'm good at it, but it doesn't make me feel very good.
You know... .this 'boring' job might be just what you need for the next year.
If you end up with partial or full custody of a child, that will take a lot of energy.
If you go through legal battles over anything with this woman, that will take a lot of energy.
Just having time to make a few neurotypical friends and enjoy their company sounds really healing for you... .and having good friends already if the drama ramps back up will really help you!
In a year, a lot of this drama will have played out... .then if you want a really challenging job or an 80-hour/week job, you will know it.
It doesn't seem like I have much of a choice but to make as much money as possible as I am now in a situation to where I must pay for my freedom.
I am still seeing her 1-2 times a week, with no physical or sexual intimacy.
I look at other women in the building i live in and find attractive and I feel so sad.
I'm so hurt that I don't get the choice anymore. That I have no choice who I have children with and that I am going to be forced to be in contact with her for the rest of my life. Paying her money.
That my life is forever changed for the worse. That I've worked so hard to build myself only to be forever knocked down.
It's really a shame that there isn't any option for me to get out of this situation.