Fake a smile...

[Chasing_Ghosts]

How do i keep pretending to be friends with my BPDex when i feel so much more? Our contact feels so hollow unless she actually opens up to me emotionally. Then i feel the closeness i miss. I talked to my T today and he seems to think the caring atmosphere i create is very much appreciated by her. But it seems as soon as she does this she just as quickly goes back to the all this "surface" talk. This is driving me to the brink of my sanity. Even texting her tonite i couldnt get myself to even try and keep up a conversation left it at reply, response... as normally she does if not feeling chatty. The thing is this isnt me... i love chalking up conversations with her but tonite i just couldnt get myself to go any further. It felt so shallow... so unfufilling and likely i feel this is all i will get unless its on her terms. Idk what to do. Should i go NC and let her miss me? It seems she does after a week or so but then its like as soon as she feels she has my attention she slowly pushes away. I know its her cycle but is there anything i can do to make this any better?

[Infern0]

Have you talked about sex?

Just steer the conversation in that direction and see what happens.