A little lost

[ziniztar]

So. Staying away from him was easy when I thought I'd be able to date other guys.

But 2,5 months in, and I'm back to my old thought pattern: normal guys are not atttracted to me, unless I get skinnier.

I am tall.

I am overweight.

I am emotionally unstable.

And I feel extremely alone and more desperate.

I called xdBPDbf 2 days ago after a date that included a painful rejection.

It was so nice to talk to him. To hear how he's doing. He knows me, and knows me when I feel like this, and knows how to cheer me up. All other friends INCLUDING PARENTS AND RELATIVES did not respond to my text saying I was feeling really bad. Or they swiftly responded. NOBODY PICKS UP THE PHONE. NOBODY CARES.

I'm going over to him tomorrow to watch a movie. He's not promising a better relationship. We're not even discussing that. I know I can't have with him what I want - he knows he can't give it. I'm getting into psychotherapy as of next week. I hope things will change there or I will relapse into an unstable r/s with him.

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[Tim300]

All other friends INCLUDING PARENTS AND RELATIVES did not respond to my text saying I was feeling really bad. Or they swiftly responded. NOBODY PICKS UP THE PHONE. NOBODY CARES.

If there's one time in life when friends and family really need to step up to the plate and ping you its when you're in the fallout of a BPD relationship.  Unfortunately, most people just don't get it.  I guess at least we'll know what to do if we see a friend or family member get railroaded by a BPD relationship -- we'll reach out a hand.

In the meantime, we have these boards.

[ColdEthyl]

GL to ya sweetie no matter what you end up deciding from this point on.