Diagnosis + Treatment
The Big Picture
Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde? [ Video ]
Five Dimensions of Human Personality
Think It's BPD but How Can I Know?
DSM Criteria for Personality Disorders
Treatment of BPD [ Video ]
Getting a Loved One Into Therapy
Top 50 Questions Members Ask
Home page
Forum
List of discussion groups
Making a first post
Find last post
Discussion group guidelines
Tips
Romantic relationship in or near breakup
Child (adult or adolescent) with BPD
Sibling or Parent with BPD
Boyfriend/Girlfriend with BPD
Partner or Spouse with BPD
Surviving a Failed Romantic Relationship
Tools
Wisemind
Ending conflict (3 minute lesson)
Listen with Empathy
Don't Be Invalidating
Setting boundaries
On-line CBT
Book reviews
Member workshops
About
Mission and Purpose
Website Policies
Membership Eligibility
Please Donate
April 27, 2024, 01:54:31 PM
Welcome,
Guest
. Please
login
or
register
.
1 Hour
5 Hours
1 Day
1 Week
Forever
Login with username, password and session length
Board Admins:
Kells76
,
Once Removed
,
Turkish
Senior Ambassadors:
Cat Familiar
,
EyesUp
,
SinisterComplex
Help!
Boards
Please Donate
Login to Post
New?--Click here to register
Experts share their discoveries
[video]
100
Caretaking - What is it all about?
Margalis Fjelstad, PhD
Blame - why we do it?
Brené Brown, PhD
Family dynamics matter.
Alan Fruzzetti, PhD
A perspective on BPD
Ivan Spielberg, PhD
BPDFamily.com
>
Relationship Partner with BPD (Straight and LGBT+)
>
Romantic Relationship | Conflicted About Continuing, Divorcing/Custody, Co-parenting
> Topic:
Please help im devastated
Pages: [
1
]
Go Down
« previous
next »
Print
Author
Topic: Please help im devastated (Read 384 times)
Confusedandbroken
Fewer than 3 Posts
Offline
What is your sexual orientation: Straight
Who in your life has "personality" issues: Ex-romantic partner
Posts: 1
Please help im devastated
«
on:
March 01, 2015, 07:32:06 PM »
I got scared reading this BPD relationships. I didnt know it exist. All of the symptoms given are exactly what i was experiencing. I was with this guy for more than 2 years. We broke up/made up multiple times. All the time the reason was uncertain. He will suddenly love me so much and hate me the next day. I am always left clueless. He will tell me he loves me so much but when he breaks up he will tell me he never ever loved me. Now i am left so heart broken because of so much love invested in him. He promised me a lot of things, he made me dream and hope. I need help to get back on my feet again as 2 years relationship is not that easy to let go. I still have this feeling of "maybe he will change" or "when will he come back" stage. Please help me understand.
Logged
Restored2
Offline
Gender:
What is your sexual orientation: Straight
Who in your life has "personality" issues: Romantic Partner
Posts: 329
Re: Please help im devastated
«
Reply #1 on:
March 01, 2015, 08:30:28 PM »
welcome to this very supportive family, Confusedandbroken. My heart goes out to you with what you are dealing with. We all have our various stories and relationships with BPD people. Your story sounds very familiar to many of ours with the pull in and push away.
BPD can be scary stuff indeed. The key is to educate and equip yourself with the informational tools on this site and help on these discussion boards. Prior to my girlfriend breaking up with me I too did not know what BPD was all about.
In order for him to change he would need to acknowledge that he has a disorder and go into intensive and progressive therapy.
Logged
tjay933
Offline
What is your sexual orientation: Straight
Who in your life has "personality" issues: Ex-romantic partner
Posts: 259
Re: Please help im devastated
«
Reply #2 on:
March 01, 2015, 08:36:11 PM »
agreed. education is the first step along with learning from each other here. you are not alone and it is not your fault.
Logged
Mutt
Retired Staff
Offline
Gender:
What is your sexual orientation: Straight
Who in your life has "personality" issues: Ex-romantic partner
Relationship status: Divorced Oct 2015
Posts: 10395
Re: Please help im devastated
«
Reply #3 on:
March 01, 2015, 08:45:22 PM »
Hi Confusedandbroken,
I'm sorry your going through this. I'd like to echo Restored2 and tjay933 Read as much as you can about BPD. I wanted to get to the truth if what I experienced for many years.
It's hard she you feel isolated and no one may understand what your going through. I felt like I was going crazy being blamed for everything and I couldn't make my partner happy because it was always my fault. Many members here can relate.
It helps to talk.
Hang in there.
----Mutt
Logged
"Let go or be dragged" -Zen proverb
JRT
Offline
What is your sexual orientation: Straight
Posts: 1809
Re: Please help im devastated
«
Reply #4 on:
March 01, 2015, 09:45:18 PM »
Confused... .
... .I have sympathy pains for you... .we all know how badly you hurt because we have had very similar things happen to us by people to whom we loved, were loyal and gave everything to with our hearts. Its sickening what this disorder does.
I know a way to make you feel better as it helped me. First, know that this is not about you or anything that you had done or are. Far from it; this is about him and something horrible that happened to him in his childhood, long before you met him. Also, there was nothing at all that you could have done differently in your relationship to have effected a different outcome - NOTHING. This is very likely what happens with all of his relationships, he will do this again and again.
Do NOT contact him. The pressure and compulsion will be enormously overwhelming - we know, we have all faced the same challenge. Not contacting him will help for you to figure things out and heal from the attachment to him. If there is another reason to not contact him, it is because any attempt to do so will lead to pushing him further away. There is a push/pull dynamic associated with this disorder that is strong. Any attempt to contact him will likely move him even further. If there is some hope for reconciliation, this is the path. I know: you are dammed if you do and dammed if you don't.
Read all that you can read about it here. There is a mountain of stuff on this site that is related to what you are going through. Its incredible how they all do similar things. It really helps to make the pain go away when you know someone else s story and its similar to your own.
Post on these boards. We all want to help because every one of us has been helped and continue to be helped by others. This is why this site is called BPD family since we help each other as a family member would help. You are not alone... .
Know that this will pass. I tell you that it is the toughest thing that I have had to endure for all of my 48 years... .my divorce was not as painful. There are some days that I am perfect and some days that are dark for me but they are generally getting better. They will for you as well, I promise.
Hugs to you... .
Logged
OnceConfused
Offline
Gender:
What is your sexual orientation: Straight
Posts: 4505
Re: Please help im devastated
«
Reply #5 on:
March 01, 2015, 11:32:47 PM »
The best way to fight your clinging mind is to remember all the bad times and all of his transgression against you. Otherwise, your mind will wander to the good times and forget the bad times.
Logged
Restored2
Offline
Gender:
What is your sexual orientation: Straight
Who in your life has "personality" issues: Romantic Partner
Posts: 329
Re: Please help im devastated
«
Reply #6 on:
March 02, 2015, 12:12:58 AM »
Hi OnceConfused. There is a lot of truth to what you said about remembering the bad times and not focusing on just the good times. It is very easy to romanticize a relationship as such without it being a balanced perspective.
Logged
Michelle27
Offline
Posts: 754
Re: Please help im devastated
«
Reply #7 on:
March 02, 2015, 08:55:07 AM »
My biggest lesson in learning about BPD is that I only have the power to change and heal myself. No matter what I do or don't do, I can't change his illness or even his ability to cope. I CAN however, get stronger myself, learn how to maintain boundaries in how I'm treated, and I'm learning once again how to have compassion and give support without taking it on the way I once did.
Logged
Can You Help Us Stay on the Air in 2024?
Pages: [
1
]
Go Up
Print
BPDFamily.com
>
Relationship Partner with BPD (Straight and LGBT+)
>
Romantic Relationship | Conflicted About Continuing, Divorcing/Custody, Co-parenting
> Topic:
Please help im devastated
« previous
next »
Jump to:
Please select a destination:
-----------------------------
Help Desk
-----------------------------
===> Open board
-----------------------------
Relationship Partner with BPD (Straight and LGBT+)
-----------------------------
=> Romantic Relationship | Bettering a Relationship or Reversing a Breakup
=> Romantic Relationship | Conflicted About Continuing, Divorcing/Custody, Co-parenting
=> Romantic Relationship | Detaching and Learning after a Failed Relationship
-----------------------------
Children, Parents, or Relatives with BPD
-----------------------------
=> Son, Daughter or Son/Daughter In-law with BPD
=> Parent, Sibling, or In-law Suffering from BPD
-----------------------------
Community Built Knowledge Base
-----------------------------
=> Library: Psychology questions and answers
=> Library: Tools and skills workshops
=> Library: Book Club, previews and discussions
=> Library: Video, audio, and pdfs
=> Library: Content to critique for possible feature articles
=> Library: BPDFamily research surveys
Our 2023 Financial Sponsors
We are all appreciative of the members who provide the funding to keep BPDFamily on the air.
12years
alterK
AskingWhy
At Bay
Cat Familiar
CoherentMoose
drained1996
EZEarache
Flora and Fauna
ForeverDad
Gemsforeyes
Goldcrest
Harri
healthfreedom4s
hope2727
khibomsis
Lemon Squeezy
Memorial Donation (4)
Methos
Methuen
Mommydoc
Mutt
P.F.Change
Penumbra66
Red22
Rev
SamwizeGamgee
Skip
Swimmy55
Tartan Pants
Turkish
whirlpoollife
Loading...