I have started using validation techniques in my texts to her and they have been so helpful. I had an amazing breakthrough when she arrived at my door and hugged me and stayed for a cup of tea and a chat.
In her texts she has told me that, because I am 'emotionally manipulative' she is limiting the amount of time she is with me. Since using SET in my texts with her, we have really moved forward. These texts had none of my feelings in. She is still wary about spending time with me.
I think that my feelings are too much for her. Do other parents of adult children with BPD ever successfully share their emotions with them?
That's a great insight, Missp
I have also found that talking about my own feelings with the people in my life with BPD (or BPD traits) can cause problems with and for them, actually, and in turn cause troubles in our relationship.
Something I do when communicating with them, either verbally--in person or on the phone--or by text/email, is always remind myself "This is about his/her feelings,
not mine!" I still convey my thoughts and feelings in a way, using S.E.T. (Support, Empathy, Truth--for those reading who might not know what that acronym means), and like you, have found that it does the trick... .My loved one isn't dysregulated and upset by the conversation, I feel better being able to communicate with him/her, and our relationship continues to thrive.
Here's an example of how I do this when I need to, in a "touchy" situation:
A few weeks ago my younger (non-BPD) son and his wife (who has BPD traits) moved into their new home. We'd offered to help them move once they told us about the purchase, but they'd hired a moving company and said they were fine and didn't need our help. So, my Husband didn't take any time off during the planned week of their move a few months later and took time off for the following month, instead, as per my son's request for us to visit them. They live 5 hours away from us.
The week of the move turned out to be very difficult for them, because the contractor they hired to do the pre-move renovations to the new home didn't actually accomplish the "move-in ready" status promised, and the moving company delivered all their boxes and furniture, etc. into a dirty, tool-filled home. With their toddler in tow, my son and D-I-L found this to be, understandably, very stressful and frustrating, and I have the impression that D-I-L (and most likely my son as well) got incredibly dysregulated over the situation.
Not knowing about the situation brewing with them, I very affectionately sent them both the same text message wishing them good luck with the move, with the hope that it all went smoothly. It was at 6:30 PM, my Husband and I were out for our weekly Friday date night dinner, and my D-I-L texted back very quickly, telling me all of their problems and stress. And that they would not mind it if we drove to their place and helped them the next day with the cleaning and emptying of the boxes.
Well, we were in the middle of dinner, had plans for the weekend already (since they hadn't taken up our offer to help them move, previously), and the drive is 5 hours one way. And we'd have to head back home on Sunday so my Husband could go to work on Monday. I knew that it wasn't our fault that this would not work, but I also knew that for her to suggest we come there (she basically avoids us most of the time) must've meant that they were desperate.
I was pretty frozen in my mind over how to respond; any response at all--that didn't include the words "Okay... .We're on our way!"--was a possible cause of their being very angry at us for a long time, maybe accompanied by a dis-invitation of us coming for the planned visit a month later (take my word for it; stuff like this has happened a
lot since their marriage 10 years ago!). Besides, I really did feel for them, and felt terrible that we couldn't come and help. And at the same time, I felt a bit defensive about being put on the spot like that, especially since we'd already offered a few months--and again a few weeks--prior, to come and help with the move so we could have time to make those plans.
After sitting on my response for about an hour, I finally texted back: "Oh, that really IS a horrible situation! I'm so sorry for all the stress you are going through; it must be so hard... .Dad ordered 10 cubic yards of topsoil a few days ago, and has to move it by wheelbarrow to build up the back yard to prevent flooding of our garage like last summer. He's doing that this weekend; the dirt was dumped in our driveway "
I didn't hear back from either of them on Friday night, and by Saturday morning my son did send a few terse texts saying that it would be nice to have family that would help, and how hard it was to do this with a toddler. Since my cellphone wasn't on at the time (I don't have it on unless we are traveling, and we stayed home that weekend to get the yard work done) I never saw the texts till Sunday night when I just decided to check it for any possible messages. I called and left a voicemail for him on his cellphone as soon as I saw the messages, telling him that I was sorry for not texting back, and why. I again validated how difficult it is to move under his circumstances, especially with a toddler, and told him how sorry I was for his situation.
He didn't call or text in response to my voicemail till Monday morning, and by then he apologized by email for not responding (I'm quite sure they were upset that we didn't come to help them, and were avoiding a conversation), and then he called me Monday evening. The phone call went well: I validated their stress, he explained that they'd really thought the home would be "move-in ready" and that they would not have this messy, difficult situation. We both agreed that had we had prior notification of the need for help (them
and us), we could have arranged for us to come and help.
This storm did pass with the least amount of collateral damage, and my Husband and I are still visiting in June, and my son and D-I-L will have a list of things that they would like us to help them with for the 4 days we will be there. S.E.T
does work, and taking my own feelings out of our conversations does allow for dialed-down communication. And using that technique does allow for me to state my "truth" in a satisfying way (for me) that doesn't actually make my own emotions an issue that can cause troubles in my relationships with my loved ones
I think you have done a good job, Missp, using this technique