Been married for over 18 years

[faith.no.more]

I've been married for over 18 years with her... Had three kids. I don't know... I'm so confused right now. All my life i've loved her. Even though since day 1 of our relationship has been.

I loved her with all my heart. All i wanted was a happy family. Even if she treats me bad. I never gave up on her. We fight mosr of the times but never did i lay my hand on her like the stories she tells our neighborhood just to destroy me.

I've been emotionally abused. For so long. So long that ive been numb.

I went abroad to work in Taiwan for about 3yrs. And with all that time as i was there working. Things got worser. At times i felt i dont have a wife anymore. She's always busy.  Only have little time to talk with me on the phone. She became colder and colder. I even have to beg just to hear her say I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU. i feel like crying right now.

Then when i went back home. I was so shocked to my nerve to know that she, my wife bore a child with somebody whose nowhere to be found.

Im sorry.  I cant continue... enough for me right now.

[jhkbuzz]

I'm so sorry for your pain... .you are suffering deeply and it's hard to bear, I know. 

Do you have family or friends you can turn to?

[ugghh]

Faith, I am sorry to hear of your troubles.  It sounds as if you are having a very difficult time with someone who is abusing you.   Yes you are being abused.  Please try to find support network immediately - therapist, family friends.  You are not going to be able to get through this alone, please start looking for a professional counselor.