If you just stop ... .HE likely will take steps to pull you back in.
Note... .Patientandclear didn't write that if you "
say" something the right way... .your pwBPD will change or do something different.
It's about what you
do (90%) and what you say (10%). They
"listen" to action.
Critical that you understand this, as their most likely motive is control, when you start behaving in ways they don't want and they perceive their "old methods" aren't working... .they
WILL try other things to "
get you back in line".
Once you are "back in line", most likely they will return to their most "comfortable" behaviors... .AS LONG AS... .you are doing the "actions" that they are looking for.
Once your actions move away from their desires... .expect them again to start using different "methods" to get you back in line.
Think about your story when you ran away and turned back to see him on his knees begging you to come back (if I remember correctly)... .can you see how that was him "
trying a different tool"?
None of us here can tell you what to do. I hope (and believe) that others here would advise you to make a conscious choice of which path (staying or going) to get on ... .and then be consistent.
I would further hope that you make a choice for you. Not for the kid... .not for the pwBPD... .or anyone else.
What can you do to step up your self care for a week or so... .get yourself some breathing room... .and think deeply about YOUR future?
FF