Hi Catlady. I am glad to hear that things are starting to settle down a bit. Will you be able to get to church this weekend? No commitment needed, but I think it would be good for you to get out and be around other people. Are there any weekend activities at your library? I was very surprised to learn how many different programs are available at my library. All free too!
Has any one asked for a separation for their SO with BPD? ... .I haven't asked him to stay away . I just don't know if it when he comes back I can be strong enough to not get dizzy and lost in his behaviour and stay in control of myself consistently.
I am going to join with Wentworth and encourage you to call the hotline now when things are more settled. It is always easier to think things through when you are not in the middle of a crisis. They can help support you whether you decide to stay or leave and you need that. Calling the hotline is not necessarily for leaving, it is about helping you to help yourself.
Can you commit to going to the website and using the chat function there? thehotline.org