It's been a while since I have been on the boards here. I originally came here some years back because of my relationship with my kids' dad.
Unfortunately, I am back because of my D16 and her BPD-ish behaviors. I'm not necessarily convinced she has BPD but she ticks a few of the boxes and she does have complex trauma.
For those who don't know my story, I have six kids. I lost custody of them in 2013 because of domestic violence due to ubpdxh. It took me ten years to get them back. During that time they lived with my older sister, who has many BPD and NPD traits and who also raised me. My kids suffered lots of verbal, mental, emotional, and physical abuse under her care. So ... complex trauma.
D16 is the second oldest and is currently the one struggling the most from the trauma. Last January she spent two weeks in acute care after overdosing on some of my medications that she stole from the bathroom. She had just completed an In-home counseling program where she was seen once a week. We got her entered in a 3x a week program. She completed that. Around two months later, she started self harming again. We kept all medications and sharp objects locked up.
Early Oct she broke up with her boyfriend, had a falling out with her best friend, and then broke into the lock box and overdosed again. Called crisis, went to the ER, and she did six days in acute inpatient care
On my birthday in November, she and I got in an argument about her being allowed to be alone at the house with her new boyfriend. She admitted to having sex with the previous boyfriend, and I had said that no boys were allowed without an adult present. That night she cut her arm so deeply that it required medical attention. Crisis line, ER, seven stitches, two weeks in a different inpatient facility and I made the decision to get her into long term treatment. She's currently hospitalized in another treatment facility and could be there for around three months.
Anyway, I just wanted to tell a little bit about what I am dealing with and connect with some other parents who might know what it's like to have a child that really struggles with suicidal ideation and self harm. Thanks for reading.
