EMDR - eye movement desensitisation reprocessing, involves recalling traumatic reoccurring memories that are ‘stuck’ and relived on a daily basis. These memories are usually so traumatic we couldn’t make sense of them, thus they can’t be compartmentalised like any old memory. In EMDR these conscious memories are coupled with movements (usually an eye movement following a pen or something) which couples memory with movement.
I don’t know whether it’s a skill which enables an individual to treat themselves as they recall more and more trauma, or whether each trauma has to be done with an EMDR specialist.
I think the counselor said he would see a specialist. I never heard of it before his T told him. It sounds like even though it is a therapy to release or remove stuck bad memories causing the mental illness, he's not stable enough to even do that type of therapy yet.
It makes me feel saner. I feel that how I feel and how I have been behaving are not what he says about me not behaving right. Under the circumstances I was put under, he should be happy I haven't completely flipped out. I am all for this light therapy when he gets to a stable point to do it.
When I go see my T, I am going to make a list. I find sometimes when I go in there, I end up just venting. While it makes me feel better, it doesn't actually accomplish anything. I need to figure out how to work through this resentment and animosity.
As I recall, he's been telling you that you're "not behaving right". Nobody likes being criticized.
I know a veteran who did EMDR for PTSD after being in combat. He thought it helped a lot.
I feel that his comment about me not acting right was definitely setting me off. One day before the gym I finally snapped. I told him his comment about me not acting right was really upsetting. I asked if he "acting right" was just rolling over, just smiling, and saying everything is okay, when it clearly isn't. He said that he could tell when I was upset and something was bothering me. It was also mentioned that I was lying because I was telling him everything was okay when he knew something was wrong.
I will stick to an agenda in my session without him knowing what the agenda is. I do know a big issue I have is I don't like talking about difficult topics with him. I avoid it because I feel we just go round and round with no resolution. That we argue and he does this "okay, you win" nonsense and I tell him It's not a competition. We need to find a middle ground.
I strongly feel if I figure out how to make out conversations more productive and bring up matters bothering me in a "safe zone" or something, I would be more inclined to discuss things with him.
