Haven't posted for a while

[SES]

I haven't posted for a while.

After three year in court, I had the final hearing for custody this week- finishing today.  The Judge wants to consider the case over the weekend before deciding. Ex wants full custody. I want the 50-50 shared care for last five years to stay in place.

I hadn't seen my ex up close and personal for quite some time. I hadn't antipicated how traumatic it would feel.  I hadn't been braced for the multitude of allegations she made via cross examination (I recognise this was a failing on my part). She was representing herself, so she cross examined me yesterday and today. She is very keen to portray me as a perpetrator of DV, and being controlling and coercive towards her and kids.  I have a really good relationship with my kids. Of note, I don't have any criminal convictions, despite years of allegations to the Police, CPS, my employer etc..

CPS are on her side to the extent they fabricated a criminal record for me of DV x2 which they shared with kids schools, my employer (I'm a nurse), my ex etc.. Despite being found out, and knowing I don't have a criminal record, they haven't retracted it.

Fair to say I am really worried what the outcome will be. It feels like I remain in a horrible alternative reality.

Just blowing off some steam by posting here.

[GaGrl]

It's good to get an update from you!

How did your lawyer handle and refute the false allegations?

How have the children been doing with the 50-50 custody?

How are YOU doing?

[SES]

The Judge accepted I don't have a criminal record.

This was her cross examination of me. Much of what she alleged I could only say it didn't happen, and there was no evidence that she could provide other than her own testimony. 

Kids want 50-50. It has worked well for them. Even CPS gave evidence that they want 50-50.  But, CPS recommended that this changes to me seeing them alternate weekends.  In UK, courts usually accept the recommendations of CPS. 

I feel traumatised by the experience over the past few days.