Hello I’m new

[Pinkcamellias]

Hello!
I’m new here. I joined to really vent and to reassure myself that I’m not crazy.  My husband has never been diagnosed with BPD. One day I was googling specific questions like, “ why does my bf do xyz “ and each question would bring me to a psychology website which broke down bpd and what it entails. It was a relief to see that what I’ve experienced with him had a name because I was always in such a fog in terms of what just happened and why am I so scared to talk to him.
I read an article about not engaging and simply watch the madness unfold as you would a movie . This has really helped me! I also read if your going to stay you need to forgo the need to always feeling loved. This was hard for me as that’s why my ex and I divorced . Honestly as a Christian and a mother I know God loves me, he even delights in me. My kids love me and like to be around me. That’s enough !
I look forward to venting and any advice you wonderful people have to offer.

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[Cat Familiar]

You sound very open to learning more about the disorder. Here’s a great video that will take about an hour of your time.

https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?topic=206132