I was trying out a drawing program that my daughter has on her iPad (with her permission), and one of the drawings was a psychotherapeutic exercise to express trauma. It was very disturbing for me to see how she viewed me, her mother, and traumatic moments from her life.
When she was
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3rd grade going into 4th, I brought a man in to live with us. This man was alcoholic and I found out a few years later, from her psychotherapist, that he'd molested her. We never spoke about the details, but the therapist indicated it was not a rape. Not that that really made it okay. Although she says she forgives me for bringing this man into our home (for 4 years), and I cut him out of our life even before I knew about the abuse, I still feel so incredibly guilty. It makes it hard for me to move on, and even after many years I can't seem to have very close relationships. At the same time, she needs to move out now that she's finished her masters degree (which makes me very proud), and I need to develop my own social life.