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Why do you feel you need to reply? What are you expectations? I'm sorry I don't have any easy answers.

No, I_AM_The_Fire... Your reply actually made me slow down from impulsively replying and THINK about why do I need to reply, what am I hoping to gain by replying... And I think I just wanted to explain to her again that it doesn't have to be like this and that I am still here and I don't want a divorce. But these are things that she already knows, so I shouldn't devalue myself and try to convince her of the sort. Trying to tell myself that this is yet again her way of
expressing what she is feeling from the separation anxiety versus the actual FACTs about life & where we are. As I am learning... There are no easy answers to this.
Thank you for your response... Just when I needed it!