I was in a tumultuous relationship with a man with bpd for almost 3 years. We didn’t know what he had until I researched it to death. He was wrongly diagnosed as having bipolar disorder, new therapist agreed it’s bpd. Always so jealous and not trusting me and quick to snap. Things would get really hard but I wanted to stay to “help” him. I did love him so deeply and I felt sorry for his having had a horrible trauma filled childhood. Our relationship got more and more toxic until I got scared and left. He then sent a million terrible texts and phone calls and some pretty serious threats so I had to get an Order of Protection. Now he can’t legally contact me in any way for 2 years or he gets arrested. He has since apologized profusely and begs forgiveness, but I am not allowed to contact him. My heart aches for him from the good times plus I’m worried sick about what he’s going through. He sometimes can’t work and is a severe alcoholic. He has sabotaged all of his relationships and has no one to help him. I cry every day and have to hold myself back from trying to contact him even though I think I make things worse for him. Such a sad saga. I don’t know anyone who’s ever been through this before. Hoping to find others here who can relate.
Well broken, first...you found the right place. Welcome to the fam. Happy you found us, but truly sorry for the circumstances which led to you to have to seek us out.
With that said...your name...broken. The goal...put humpty dumpty back together again and help you become a better, stronger version of yourself.
So while the pain and the hurt is intense and it feels like it will never leave...it will. You are not the only one to go through this. You will find many have had similar experiences and circumstances to yours here.
Please continue to post and vent and share as much as you want to and ask as many questions as you need to.
In the meantime please be kind to you and please take care of yourself.
Cheers and Best Wishes!
-SC-