Hi everyone, I'm new here. Thanks for any responses. (
there are SA triggers and drug use mentioned in this post) Sorry for the long read.
I have two daughters from a previous marriage and live with them and my husband of 6 years. My oldest daughter is 22, and she has dual diagnosis bipolar and BPD.
About two years ago we were having a lot of conflict with her and her behavior and she decided to move in with a boyfriend for about 18 months. It was a peaceful time in our household, although I did still have to bail her out and help her sometimes.
Then last year broke up. She stayed living there and one day when she was sleeping on the couch he raped her. She didn't want to try to get him prosecuted for rape and go through all of the trauma associated with that, because sexual assault within a relationship is so hard to prove, and he didn't physically hurt her. So instead we forced him to move out of their shared place and she continued to live there with roommates.
I had to pay her new security deposit (since the bf was refunded his when he moved out), buy a new fridge for the place since they'd ruined it, and help her with rent. After about a month she was really struggling, had quit her job and said it was too triggering to be in that house, so I moved her back in to our home.
She's been here almost a year.
Since she moved back in it's been near constant drama. She's had an endless stream of crappy partners. She's been drinking and doing increasingly more drugs. She keeps making terrible decisions - she fell for a scam that cost her $1,000 (that I had to help her with), she quit her job without having another, she got fired from a job, she's gotten speeding tickets and run red lights, I could go on and on. It's been chaos.
Her car is in my name, I pay for the insurance, I pay for her phone, even her bank account still has my name on it. Her living with us has cost me thousands of dollars because I have to keep bailing her out.
Most recently, she's with a new guy she met a few weeks ago. A few days ago we told her we needed a break from her having guests in the house (i.e him, who had been with her every night for more than a week, showering here and eating our food). Instead of just staying home and spending the night alone, she packed up her car to go sleep with him in it (he's homeless and has bipolar 1). Yesterday they were sleeping at a hotel room and when we woke up he'd left her there and taken her car.
So I drove down and picked her up, we reported the car stolen, etc. Many hours later the bf dropped the car off with the key at her friend's house with all kinds of excuses about how it was all a misunderstanding, etc. It was night by then and I was exhausted from the drama of the day so I told her to just got to bed and we'd deal with it in the morning and went to bed. I wanted the police to check the car over to make sure he'd not done anything illegal with it while he had it (like hit someone).
This morning I woke up to find out that in the middle of the night she left and picked up the car and has been driving it around (even though we'd reported it stolen), and contacted me because her key fob stopped working and she couldn't get into the car and wanted me to call AAA.
I can't reason with her. I can't talk to her about things. Any time I try to say anything to her that's remotely negative she shuts me down, won't talk, hangs up on me, etc. She keeps making these impulsive destructive choices and we keep being dragged along with her. It's hurting my marriage (my husband has reached his limit with this and I'm afraid he's going to leave), it's affecting my other child (a HS senior), it's costing me so much money, and I feel like the stress is killing me.
She's fairly good about taking her meds, and I've got her in therapy for DBT, but the progress seems slow. She's been to the ER twice this year for suicidal ideation and both times she's stabilized in the ER and not been placed. She doesn't eat consistently, or take care of her body, and now she's using drugs. I looked into a long term inpatient BPD program and my insurance doesn't cover it and it costs $40k for one month which we just cannot afford.
I want so badly for her to get better and make better choices and do the right thing.
She was such a bright, lovely child. I had such high hopes for what her life would be like. I've worked so hard to get her stabilized and on a better path but she keeps making these choices.
I can't force her to do anything. I think we need to kick her out. But I know she'll be homeless and I worry so much about how much worse things can get for her out there alone.
She's my baby. I know you parents can relate. I don't want her to be hurt more than she already has. I'm just hoping for some support, or advice, or just solidarity.
Thank you.