Even thou she fd up my life I still care and just don't want her to get seriously hurt
Hey there - I am hearing that you're hurting and that she's hurting. And I would invite you to repeat this sentence to yourself in the mirror, out loud. As many times as it takes for you to find the perspective.
There are few things in life that are more painful than watching the ones we love, suffer. And yet, there is a real danger in trying to save a drowning person if you don't know what you are doing?
How about spending some time talking to a therapist to get to the bottom of the nature of what is motivating you to reach out. Nothing wrong with reaching out, finding help. Talking things through with a therapist might help you pinpoint where your blind spots are so that you too stay safe - physically and emotionally.
What do you think?
Rev