What is happening here?
I needed someone to talk to. He was there. He was treating me like a human being. Odd thing is, he messaged. Asked if I was ignoring him, when I didn't reply, he said I take that as a yes and said it was fun while it lasted. I tried to message and my app wouldn't let me. I had already let go of the need for the attention. It may just be the app acting up, but I feel it's not letting me message because there is something guiding me. I also reflected on what he said. That is a red flag and I am glad now I can't talk to him.
I dropped the hotel job. They hired me under false impressions. I went to a fast food chain I worked for before and I ended up running in my old boss who is now the store manager. She said she can hire me on immediately as a manager and make the same pay as the hotel. It is by far what I wanted, but I am putting aside my pride and doing what I have to provide for my boys. My time is limited at the shelter and I have to focus on saving money. And the hours are better with my kids.
I said something to my stbx. He finally said he didn't want to see me and didn't want to watch S3. Said he wouldn't talk to me until I can be nice and he wasn't going to keep putting up with my negative attitude and being insulted. Little does he know that he just gave me a blessing in disguise. That said on his part makes me feel like the break is slowly happening on his end. I feel he can sense that his pretty words and promises aren't giving any sway like they did every time before.
He says at some point I am choosing this (to be angry). I said, you're right. I am choosing this. I am choosing to have a happier and healthier life.