Hi
I’m in the same boat basically. 8 weeks ago I was blocked and nothing since. It does get easier and I think it’s due to the anti depressants I started 3 weeks ago and the 10 or so therapy sessions I have had. The anti depressants have made me feel less pain.
I have also been implementing self care to an extent I never thought of before. I’ve booked a holiday to Bali, I’m getting laser rejuvenation, car detailing, and reconnecting with old friends.
I changed my researching and thinking to focus on why I dodged a bullet rather than trying to win back/what ifs/what I’m missing out on. And I think I’m finally coming to terms with that. Talk to your friends about the psychotic bull
PLEASE READ, the weird behaviours and red flags you ignored. I’ve talked a lot and they are confirming everytime that I have infact dodged a bullet.