I was a different person when we met. I've eroded away. My inner light has dimmed.
Hey Katerina, Welcome! Many of us here have been down this path before you, including me, so you are not alone, as
zachira notes. I know exactly what you are talking about in terms of getting worn down by the constant stress in a BPD r/s. Towards the end of my marriage (with two kids) to my BPDxW, I had nothing left in the tank, so-to-speak.
The place to start, I suggest, is with yourself, by treating yourself with kindness and compassion, and by focusing on your needs. What is the best path for YOU? What would YOU like to see happen? What are YOUR gut feelings? As
pearlsw puts it, is there anything worth saving?
LuckyJim