Do you think its possible that you want to re-engage to prove to yourself that you really are over him?
Thanks J4C
Yep - I reckon it is exactly that. I feel very good right now and perhaps want to test my level of 'over him'.
But you're right... . he would not be friendly at all. I became a trigger for some fairly appalling treatment at the end... . and beyond it.
9 months ago when I tried to make contact he put the phone onto someone else who told me to go away. Soo embarrassing.
Because they are undiagnosed, I can have trouble believing he has a PD... . and I can imagine a level of logic entering the picture. But it won't and can't.
I have just never known an ending like it, so the morbid curiosity remains - to understand how his warped mind works.
You are right to know we are better off staying away. They will punish us forever for implanting in them that sense of abandonment - perceived or not
BB12