7 months on and I am still thinking about my friend; not as much but he's still there in my mind.
I have been going over some of the things he said to me in his final email; two jump out and now in reflection I am wondering if they were projections:
"You know how eccentric I am; and its no good for you".
"We clearly can't be friends because things gets blurred and you have feelings towards me which are not good for you."He would always say things were 'no good for me' when he was talking about us meeting up or being in contact. Maybe he was projecting that these things aren't good for him but also maybe he did have some insight in to how much his personality cripples others?
Also he has been off facebook for nearly 4 months now; but bizarrely other things now pop up. For example, he is an actor and a page that is linked to rotten tomatoes is now appearing when you put his name in search. That has been happening for some time now. Then a couple of weeks ago an article about 'XXX net wealth' has now appeared. The net wealth one is utter rubbish and clearly not what he earns at all... .but why am I suddenly seeing these when they weren't there before? Is it a subtle way of him making sure I see something about him if I search his name? The net worth one is ridiculous and literally made my eyes roll.
Also on his spotlight account he has been updating it to show what he is currently doing with regards to acting jobs; this was never updated 7 months ago and he has added 'weight training' to his hobbies. Weirdly I have lost 2.5 stone and been hitting the gym hard. His spotlight account has been updated and changed and put back to what it was, then other things added quite a lot recently. Again I wonder if its to catch my attention. I know I know I shouldn't look but... .
Anybody else get these insights which do make you think 'was that posted for my benefit'?
Or maybe I am over analysing as usual
